Manic Monday reflection – what makes you feel loved?
At first, the posted question sounded easy, and I knew it would be easy for me to answer. Although as I pondered my answer through it, there are just too many levels, ways and people that make me feel loved.
But then there is this one person who emerges in my thoughts, and to whom I am extremely grateful for making me feel most loved, my husband. Ever since we were boyfriends-girlfriends, I appreciate how much he is attuned with my needs — as a woman, as a person, and as his partner. He understands my need for his full attention to the present; my need for an embrace in replacement of more word battle; my need for an open communication line and my need for little dates from time to time.
The start of my favorite ber months came in too strong leaving me playing catch up with last minute preparations for my (only) little brother’s wedding, assisting on B’s business, working on my personal biz, home management (basically everyday living like preparing food, eating and cleaning up after yourself take A LOT of time!) and now, preparing for baby’s arrival!
Life happened and I just have to live each moment!
Over the weekend was my brother’s wedding. The usual Jaycelle planned to squeeze in as much tasks as I can into our schedule. Since we checked in the day before the wedding, I planned to have a family portrait shoot before little brother ties the knot, our weekly baby bump shoot, our gender reveal shoot, as well as to “relax and unwind”. Ha! So much for a little r & r. But the reality is we weren’t able to do any of that.
Today, two days after the wedding was the only time I was able to get some rest. Earlier I was still in a high from this eventful weekend and I was feeling anxious. I kept thinking what else do I need to accomplish but I could not seem to move. Then I realized I need to sit down with my thoughts, in order to clear my head and really think — how was I feeling, what do I need to do, how do I move forward and get back on the grind.
I realized in order to move forward, I need to unload the many thoughts and emotions I’m feeling.
First off, I was planning to make a speech at brother’s wedding, but I guess due to time constraint and reception program priorities, speeches were limited to the best man and the mothers of the newlyweds. And so I’m going to make use of my little digital diary to share my speech for my brother and my sister-in-law.
Glenn and Maxine, congratulations to the both of you! I know you’ve waited 9 long years for this moment to be a reality and finally, here it is. I know you know that it isn’t easy planning a wedding. I believe that it’s actually one of the first tests to couples who are planning to spend the rest of their lives together. And like with our experience, we almost called the wedding off due to the overwhelming pressure,