Pregnancy can bring on a flood of conflicting feelings. As happy as I may be about the new life growing inside me, my ever-changing and expanding body makes me feel uncomfortable and anything but beautiful. As my breasts grow, my waistline disappears, and my belly swells, I long to have my old body back — It’s hard not to.
Though I take comfort in the fact that the most awkward and frustrating phase in pregnancy is often when your belly is growing but you don’t look pregnant yet, just like as I was during first trimester. But as soon as my second trimester hits, I am already set to enjoying in that “pregnancy glow”.
The start of my favorite ber months came in too strong leaving me playing catch up with last minute preparations for my (only) little brother’s wedding, assisting on B’s business, working on my personal biz, home management (basically everyday living like preparing food, eating and cleaning up after yourself take A LOT of time!) and now, preparing for baby’s arrival!
Life happened and I just have to live each moment!
Over the weekend was my brother’s wedding. The usual Jaycelle planned to squeeze in as much tasks as I can into our schedule. Since we checked in the day before the wedding, I planned to have a family portrait shoot before little brother ties the knot, our weekly baby bump shoot, our gender reveal shoot, as well as to “relax and unwind”. Ha! So much for a little r & r. But the reality is we weren’t able to do any of that.
Today, two days after the wedding was the only time I was able to get some rest. Earlier I was still in a high from this eventful weekend and I was feeling anxious. I kept thinking what else do I need to accomplish but I could not seem to move. Then I realized I need to sit down with my thoughts, in order to clear my head and really think — how was I feeling, what do I need to do, how do I move forward and get back on the grind.
I realized in order to move forward, I need to unload the many thoughts and emotions I’m feeling.
First off, I was planning to make a speech at brother’s wedding, but I guess due to time constraint and reception program priorities, speeches were limited to the best man and the mothers of the newlyweds. And so I’m going to make use of my little digital diary to share my speech for my brother and my sister-in-law.
Glenn and Maxine, congratulations to the both of you! I know you’ve waited 9 long years for this moment to be a reality and finally, here it is. I know you know that it isn’t easy planning a wedding. I believe that it’s actually one of the first tests to couples who are planning to spend the rest of their lives together. And like with our experience, we almost called the wedding off due to the overwhelming pressure,